It was Saturday morning, I was going for a workout walk. I was using my “Happy-Happy-Joy-Joy” playlist that contains some of my favorite songs with tempos around 125 beats per minute…
Gwen Stefani – Wind it Up
Britt Nicole – Like a Star
Petshop Boys – Always on my Mind
Daft Punk – Hard Better Faster Stronger
Amber – If You Could Read My Mind
Black Eyed Peas – I Gotta Feeling
Madonna – Ray of Light
Fergie – Glamorous . . . . . . . . .
I was getting a good walk, keeping up with the beat; and in each step I was attempting to walk away all my frustrations from the week… it had been a very, VERY, stressful week. It was the type of week I never wanted to see again. It was awful bad. Prayers feel unanswered; and the heartbreaking truth is that, I don’t see an end to the stress anytime soon. And it feels hopeless. So I wanted to sweat away all the pain, heartache, stress, and cortisol building up in me.
I was 45 minutes into my heart-pumping walk, when a song came on that didn’t belong. Something got into my playlist that was not to tempo. It jolted me. I knew the song well, but it didn’t belong. And yet in some way it was the right song at the right time. I was on a rarely traveled path, by myself, and that song unraveled me.
I realized that while I had been pushed to my limits, I had started to shut down and was in a mode of surviving. This song reminded me – that while life might be difficult and sometimes teetering on hopeless and impossible – I shouldn’t forget to live.
Nothing was magical, my circumstances are unchanged, and I can’t say the song cured all my ales by any stretch of the imagination. But in the moment, it seemed a little divine. A little heaven-sent.
Wake up to the sunlight, With your windows open
Don’t hold in your anger or leave things unspoken
Wear your red dress, Use your good dishes
Make a big mess and make lots of wishes
Have what you want, But want what you have
And don’t spend your life lookin’ back
Chorus: Turn up the music, Turn it up loud, Take a few chances, Let it all out
You won’t regret it, Lookin’ back from where you have been,
Cuz it’s not who you knew, and it’s not what you did, It’s how you lived
So go to the ballgames, And go to the ballet
And go see your folks more than just on the holidays
Kiss all your children, Dance with your wife
Tell your husband you love him every night
Don’t run from the truth, ‘Cause you can’t get away
Just face it and you’ll be okay
Oh wherever you are and wherever you’ve been, Now is the time to begin
So give to the needy, And pray for the grieving
Even when you don’t think that you can
‘Cause all that you do is bound to come back to you
So think of your fellow man
Make peace with God and make peace with yourself
‘Cause in the end there’s nobody else