Right Now I Know…. Ver 2.0

In a world of uncertainty, there are times it’s good to write down what you know…

I’ve done this before, but it’s been a while. And right now with so much going on in my life (building my non-profit createHEART and completing my Masters in Life Coaching – I’ll be done in Sept!!!) my brain is mooshie and thinks short little sentence statements. So writing like this is a best I’ve got this week.

Here’s what I know right now:

  • I still get nervous when writing a post that is personal; because I have foes that read my thoughts.
  • I try to live with courage. Most days, I know it’s been easier—better—to be transparent.
  • There are people in my life that lack grace; more and more I believe they are there for purpose.
  • There are people in my life that scare me, because my monster-side shows up to greet them.
  • I’ve almost forgiven everyone.
  • I wish some would forgive me.
  • There are friends I deeply miss.
  • Every cupcake has at least 12 bites, it’s important to find and respect and enjoy each one.
  • Children are how God laughs.
  • Flowers are how God sighs.
  • I’m looking forward to Fall; the crisp morning air, fragrant burning leaves, and scamper and scratch of squirrels knocking acorns from the oaks.
  • Sometimes a hard laugh turns into a cry because it’s like hitting “stir” on the blender and everything gets mixed and whirled up.
  • That’s okay.
  • I still have secrets. I’m not sure if that’s good. Or okay.
  • I just remembered, there is chocolate (hidden) in a kitchen cupboard that is designated for flower vases.
  • I’m befriending and feeding a homeless cat.
  • I always want to be a couple sizes smaller than my natural weight.
  • When I read scripture I can be bored, but when I study it—all my synapses feel zingy-wonderful.
  • My life has changed more in one year than it has in the last ten.
  • These last twenty-four months have been the hardest of my life. You’d think I was exaggerating if I told you everything. I have several more hard things ahead but I feel better prepared.
  • God shouldn’t trust me this much. Because God knows I wouldn’t trust myself this much.
  • There are hymns I cling to; I can’t sing them without feeling the need to weep.
  • I figure at some point I’ll grow numb to these songs; that they’ll feel routine; and yet it hasn’t happened.
  • I have a friend that walked away from their faith. I think about them often; I don’t know how the story will end.
  • People turn up the volume on my curiosity, and overall I immensely enjoy people, quirks and all.
  • Especially the “quirks and all.”
  • Authenticity is strikingly beautiful.
  • Everyone has a purpose. Seek it. Ask for it.
  • I want to cry with joy when my clients have an “ah-ha” moment. I’m emotionally holding their hands when the “ah-ha” hurts. I’m physically giddy when the “ah-ha” propels them into a new stage of excellence.
  • I constantly coach myself. This has saved my sanity.
  • I constantly do art. This has saved my soul.
  • There is so much unnecessary pain because we can think it all wrong and believe the lies. In many ways I was born to help others with this.
  • Misunderstood kids, and at-risk-youth, break my heart. I think because in my youth I was “closet-ly” at risk.
  • Even when it feels impossible, somehow God still has my back.
  • Don’t underestimate a simple bottle of soap bubbles. In the moment, blowing bubbles has a way of lifting my spirit and making things okay.

what do you know… right now…

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11 thoughts on “Right Now I Know…. Ver 2.0

  1. You wrote:

    “I want to cry with joy when my clients have an “ah-ha” moment. I’m emotionally holding their hands when the “ah-ha” hurts. I’m physically giddy when the “ah-ha” propels them into a new stage of excellence.”

    That is exactly what I miss most from my previous life. That feeling was my reward and it never equated to hours put into the person. Sometimes it was immediate and other times, years. But it was always “my reward” and “my blessing” to be a part of anyone’s “ah-ha” moment!

    I pray that you touch so many lives with your gifts, those “ah-ha” moments are as numerous as the stars.

  2. Love this! I know that in about 8 days… I will live in complete FREEDOM. And people will either love me for it or judge me. But authenticity is what I want….my God has the final word… and I am so so so good with that.

  3. Love, Love, love this! (and even learned a new thing or 2 about you). I know that God has great things planned for you and I, and I’m ready to ride that roller coaster!

    • Thanks Sharon. 🙂 I hope God has great plans for me and createHEART and Truth SOUL’ution, but I’m the kite trying to stay on the currents of the wind. And that kite ride is a wild roller coaster ride!!

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